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Day: March 7, 2013

The Sweetest Kind of Dilemma

The Sweetest Kind of Dilemma

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There he is. Cradled in my arm, snuggled against me, catching his 40 winks.

Should I put him down in the cot and risk him waking up then start the whole tedious sleeping procedure again or just let him be. Continue blogging with one hand.

Dilemma dilemma. I can just hear voices in my head (jialat arh! I’m starting to hear voices in my head…).

Voice A : Better put him down in his cot arh. You spoil him like that, next time you forever carry him to sleep meh??

Voice B : But what if he wakes up?? Going through the process. Very Siong you know!!

Voice A : if you put him down you can pump your milk. Your milk supply is so low. How to go back to work like that?? Every time you pump out 70 ml he drinks 90 ml. Like that sure *gg! (Gg stands for good game. Internet gaming jargon. That means game over. )

Voice B : But but he’s sleeping so sweetly.

(The culprit was making cute mewing sounds in his dream. Awwww…)

Voice A : but what but?! You still have loads of emails to reply and clients to call!

Voice B : He’s only a baby once in his life. He will grow too big to fit in this sleeping position very soon. I wouldn’t be able to cradle him like that anymore. See his long eyelashes?? So cute!!!

Voice A : if you get shoulder cramps and whatever arm cramps, don’t come and complain to me arh!

Voice B thinks to itself, “so grouchy early in the morning.”

(Win lor! Now my voice in my head has another voice in its head. This can go on and on…)

Meanwhile inertia has set in.

Voice B : ok ok. I’ll put him down in at 11am.

(We started the debate at 10am. It’s now 1030am).

Voice A : then he will want to drink and then sleep and here we go again….

That’s how I spend my morning. Cradling my baby and talking to myself. Hah!

Something from the Past – Sweet Valley High

Something from the Past – Sweet Valley High

I’ve almost forgotten about this series of books until I stumbled upon this article.

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Memories of me borrowing these books from the small little 2nd hand book store, which has since closed down years ago, came back to me. I was reading as fast as I could. I was only reading the classical fairy tales, nancy drew, hardy boys etc before this.

Sweet Valley High was the first series of teenage romance that I came across. It was a whole new world out there. I was fascinated by the glitzy lives of Jessica and Elizabeth Wakefield.

However, I suspect that if I were to reread them now, I would probably find them frivolous and childish.

I loved the Narnia series by CS Lewis when I was a child. A few years ago, I decided to add them to my collection when some anniversary hard cover edition was released. I ordered them from Amazon and couldn’t wait to get my hands on them. I read them again.

I found that I didn’t enjoy them as much as I did. As a child they were magical, as an adult, they were too simplified. Maybe I’ve grown jaded through the years. Things are no longer black and white like a child’s book, but in shades of grey.

Memories are best left alone when they are beautiful and good. In a way, I’m glad that I read and enjoyed so many books when I was a little girl. My parents allowed me to do things that pleased me and brought me to wonderful new places.

As we grow up, we need to move on and create new memories for our future. Once in a while, it’s nice to remember that I’ve been there and done that. So if you want to do something, do it NOW. So that you wouldn’t have the chance to look back and wonder, “what if”….

The next time I read an Enid Blyton, is probably with my little girl. For her to create her own beautiful memories, whether they are of fairy tales or real life experiences.